Woah. Let me clear this up!
I don't hate any mods here currently. The only member I truly fucking hate is the one who called me a cunt. He's been on the ignore list since 2010, but i still look at his posts because I know he can't resist attacking me every second in every thread. I hate the bad memories I can't forget. I'm constantly trying adapt, but it hurts too much. It why I'm so hostile, and perfectly okay with this place just going away. So I'm leaving in 2017. All my enemies here are gone, except one.
This isn't about me anymore. It's about HBG. People happy with the current situation translate into this:
We're perfectly okay with the desolation.
We're perfectly okay communicating with the same people for eternity.
We love this place even if nothing is going for it.
We're okay reading constant posts about people talking about how shit their lives are.
Etc etc etc etc.
The logic tells me happiest is fake. It's confirmed by certain actions.
I'm doing exactly what this place did to me, making 'yall stronger'. It doesn't feel too good does it? But the end result is a better HBG if you realize it or not.
It's happening. So it's mission accomplished for me. Try not to ignore the helpful information I occasionally give. Everything I state is the truth and not just made up to piss off people. The truth hurts, it's why i gave up on my project.
I accepted that truth, and it was very painful. This place is doing the same. In fact I'm very happy changes are being made. The last RM site just removed me and accepted failure. HBG isn't accepting failure. I see a thread that confirms that...
It's a complicated love hate thing going on here. I can't really explain it. AHHHHHHHHH. I'll take a break from posting now. Post what's on your mind.
I don't hate any mods here currently. The only member I truly fucking hate is the one who called me a cunt. He's been on the ignore list since 2010, but i still look at his posts because I know he can't resist attacking me every second in every thread. I hate the bad memories I can't forget. I'm constantly trying adapt, but it hurts too much. It why I'm so hostile, and perfectly okay with this place just going away. So I'm leaving in 2017. All my enemies here are gone, except one.
This isn't about me anymore. It's about HBG. People happy with the current situation translate into this:
We're perfectly okay with the desolation.
We're perfectly okay communicating with the same people for eternity.
We love this place even if nothing is going for it.
We're okay reading constant posts about people talking about how shit their lives are.
Etc etc etc etc.
The logic tells me happiest is fake. It's confirmed by certain actions.
I'm doing exactly what this place did to me, making 'yall stronger'. It doesn't feel too good does it? But the end result is a better HBG if you realize it or not.
It's happening. So it's mission accomplished for me. Try not to ignore the helpful information I occasionally give. Everything I state is the truth and not just made up to piss off people. The truth hurts, it's why i gave up on my project.
I accepted that truth, and it was very painful. This place is doing the same. In fact I'm very happy changes are being made. The last RM site just removed me and accepted failure. HBG isn't accepting failure. I see a thread that confirms that...
It's a complicated love hate thing going on here. I can't really explain it. AHHHHHHHHH. I'll take a break from posting now. Post what's on your mind.