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[coyotecraft]

Idk, that kind of inspirational stuff doesn't work on everyone. It lifts some people up. holds other people down. And few who are unmoved or feel patronized by it.

 

[Hybrida]

"Let's repeatedly kick your ass. It maybe painful, but you'll come out stronger. We're trying to help you by being savages. Let us be savages to you. It will make you stronger."

How come you guys don't be savages to them other motherfucka's over there who's doing worse than me?

"We know them. We don't know you, so we gotta kick your ass. It's fun to be as mean as possible to people we don't know, but we really care. We're making you stronger by being complete assholes and beating you up. Don't get angry or we'll really be bitches."

Yeah, well fuck y'all.

"See? He's raging. He won't let us kick his ass. Let us hurt you, let us demoralize you until the point you give up. If you give up you're a lil bitch, if you don't, we'll keep kicking your ass."

Well, now. I apologize for not being raised like savage animals. I don't like this chaotic method. How is a bombardment of negativity helpful? If anything, it just makes me just wanna murder everyone via flamethrower instead of getting 'stronger'. Killing all the negative people seems way more fun currently. The negativity and ass kicking ends. I rather do that. Understand the logic I'm using. I'll get strong some other way, a little less degrading.

 

[Xilef]

IRL: "OMG that's amazing." "You came up with that all by yourself? That's cool?" "We want more information." "Wow you're very creative." "You have your own game?!" "The animations are great!" "You should teach science." "I love the story. Please share more!" "I like how you think."

Out of all those quotes "We want more information." is probably the only one that doesn't seem patronising to me.

Back when I was a young teen people would every now-and-then say "You came up with that all by yourself?" which to me translates as "I don't understand what you're talking about - but I can see you've invested a lot of passion into this".

I've never had anyone say "I love the story. Please share more!" - sounds like something a teacher would say to a child at school. Telling the story for battle world rpg takes a good 6 to 8 hours - mostly because of interruptions from questions - and at the end of that people are usually jumping up and down going all like "OMG ARHGAHRAGRHG" from the ending and then I'm all like "And it will never get made into a game!!!".

 

[coyotecraft]

@hybrida
I think that has more to do with rejection.
Rejection and failure aren't exactly the same thing. Depending on what it is you're really seeking. I can't put it into words a.t.m.

Heading to the polls to vote.

 

[Mega Flare]

Hybrida has been me all along BTW :smug:

Wait I thought I was hybrida

Wait your not?! I don't know what to believe in anymore

 

[Ellie]

I'm megafalre.

 

[Mega Flare]

I'm megafalre.

The plot thickens

 

[bacon]

Who am I anymore

 

[Jason]

Am I any more who?

 

[Hybrida]

@hybrida
I think that has more to do with rejection.
Rejection and failure aren't exactly the same thing. Depending on what it is you're really seeking.

Something like that. It explains why my friend's list is on zero and I only got 4 PM's my whole existence here. My whole life has been like that. I don't fit in anywhere. I didn't expect it from the internet too. It's okay. It's why I automatically reject all people in retaliation as well. It's why I'm so mean, rude, and never let anyone get close.

I never actually talked about it before. Amazing. I understand me now. This is a first, but nothing will change. I'm already too damaged. Hatred and retaliation is all that's left. My mom always said "Just trying fit in and adapt to people." I'm 31 years old and it still doesn't work. They automatically dislike me, and I automatically look down on them as if they're inferior beings. It happens simultaneously. Maybe it's my spiritual aura. It could be repulsive to low vibrating spirits and vice versa. That's not my problem. I won't lower my consciousness just to fit in with anyone.

Thanks for pointing out that rejection thing. My entire life makes sense now. Although the problems aren't going away.

 

[Jason]

Or maybe people dislike you BECAUSE you look down on them as if they're inferior beings? Pretty sure that's why the majority of people here dislike you... well, that and your massive ego that would make Robert Downey Jr. curl up in the corner and cry himself to sleep...

 

[united washcloth express]

I was Venetia all along.

 

[bacon]

If we're talking conspiracy theories I think that Moe/moxxy was despain

 

[Jason]

I remember some guy being all creepy with moe saying he jacked off to her pics lol... those were the days

 

[Hybrida]

Or maybe people dislike you BECAUSE you look down on them as if they're inferior beings? Pretty sure that's why the majority of people here dislike you... well, that and your massive ego that would make Robert Downey Jr. curl up in the corner and cry himself to sleep...

LMAO

Actually I was rejected first in the IRC before I even joined these forums. That's why I look down on everyone here. I remember all of it. I was gonna stop, but I observed the forum behavior and topics here. My brain decided that these people are savage infidels.

Remember the original REC room before you guys cleaned out all the nasty barbaric filth? I knew what I was dealing with. Corruption, trolls, elitism, etc. "So this is the internet? OMG".

However I tried to present what I was doing, and got rejected again. "That's it! I've had it."
I was just hoping I could relate and fit in with one person. Nope. No one. Zero... Still like that at this very moment.

So next time you go 404, don't come back... Too much bad history. Let this shit go. Only one member from this enitre site made a big retail video game. It was called 'Star Ruler'. Only positive thing to come outta here as far as I'm concerned. Don't bother listing anything else, I don't care anyway.

 

[Jason]

You keep saying it's a bad place, and for us not to come back... yet you keep coming back too.

I don't get it.

 

[Spoo]

Reives, the guy who made Quintessence: The Blighted Venom, went on to make To the Moon, one of the most successful indie RPGs on Steam in 2011. It received critical acclaim and won and was nominated for several awards.

 

[Jason]

And it's getting a sequel!

 

[Hybrida]

I rather you guys go before me. It would be glorious if it happened, if not *shrug*.
I plan on going away on new year's day...

I return here to try to understand how your brains work. It's too erratic to provide a full analysis. I view as a social experiment and to improve my knowledge & relations of most humans. Attempting to relate and adapt, but i end up failing because I rather insult everyone. *Shrug*

 

[Ellie]

Hybrida can I stop you for a second and let you think that this is a real website, ran by real people, and that despite not even being the owner, gaining no benefit from it, and not even being the root admin, I look after this place, bring it back when it goes down, still try and work on innovations for it, and still come back here, despite the fact that it fills me with so much stress and depression any time it goes down because I know that I am helpless for a lot of it? I'm a person bro, and I would appreciate it if you would back off and sit in a corner for a while.

On top of that you are only here because I unbanned you and I argued for months with the other admins and when they eventually disappeared the first thing I did was unban you. You didn't come back for a while but I unbanned you. And Ratty524 and several other people who I thought the site had been massively unfair to.

So no. We're not going to 404. And I am not going to let this shit go. This place has literally been my home for the past decade and beyond.

There, I said it.