Perihelion
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I know how you feel, coyote. That's what led me to start my current project. What were you frustrated about specifically?
Post What's on Your Mind
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coyotecraft
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Just stuck on this monster sprite that I should have finished forever ago. And just, I need to get fast because I'm no help to anyone when it takes me months to do one little thing.
coyotecraft
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I was going at it like a practice dummy and it hit back.
I took an online mental health test (I know, it's a bad idea and whatnot, but whatever right?) apparently I have severe anxiety, major depression, PTSD and Bipolar...
The weird thing about it is that after I finished the questionnaire, I got an email about "bipolar support" but I never actually put my email into the website... O.O (THEY'RE WATCHING ME MAAAAAN.)
The weird thing about it is that after I finished the questionnaire, I got an email about "bipolar support" but I never actually put my email into the website... O.O (THEY'RE WATCHING ME MAAAAAN.)
Juan J. Sánchez
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I took a test just for fun and it was pretty accurate. I don't actually qualify for any mental disorders but I'm at risk for depression and substance abuse (alcohol. However, I have been taking my treatment, so that explains why I'm not doing so bad at this moment.
There was once a man. That's it. He lived, he formed bonds, he inhaled smoke, he exhaled worries. He found love, he found himself, he found death. As quickly as he came into his world, so to did he leave.
He wasn't here to see how everyone else felt, but he did worry about it before leaving. The actions of one truly does affect others, and like the ripples of droplets in a pond, everything effects everything. He knew that. He worried about that. And then he was dead. But the memory of his actions stained time, and stained those around him. The actions of those people also stained time, and those around them. Though these people might be gone, their actions happened. They existed and they did things.
And then. They died.
I don't know where I'm going with this, I'm just very tired. My best friends rabbit died last night, on her birthday. I was up at 3 am consoling her. I apparently said "the nicest words anyone has said to her" but I don't know. Did the words make her feel better? Or did they just make me feel better? I dread losing my bird. I've had him for little under two months, and I've already had nightmares about it and during that time, I doubt anyone could say the nicest words to me.
He wasn't here to see how everyone else felt, but he did worry about it before leaving. The actions of one truly does affect others, and like the ripples of droplets in a pond, everything effects everything. He knew that. He worried about that. And then he was dead. But the memory of his actions stained time, and stained those around him. The actions of those people also stained time, and those around them. Though these people might be gone, their actions happened. They existed and they did things.
And then. They died.
I don't know where I'm going with this, I'm just very tired. My best friends rabbit died last night, on her birthday. I was up at 3 am consoling her. I apparently said "the nicest words anyone has said to her" but I don't know. Did the words make her feel better? Or did they just make me feel better? I dread losing my bird. I've had him for little under two months, and I've already had nightmares about it and during that time, I doubt anyone could say the nicest words to me.
Mega Flare
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This. Plus its just a pet.bacon":2mjegpgp said:
StrawberrySmiles
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Pets are usually considered family, Megaflare. Mine is my baby.
I do appreciate the sentiment, but it's because I can't control it that I worry. I know my bird is going to die, and I know it will destroy me when it does.bacon":2yw3g0js said:
My friend went out the evening before her rabbit died and stayed at her boyfriends. In the morning she got a text from her mom to say that the rabbit was fine, then by the time she got back in the evening she found it dead.
My granddad on my fathers side died due to a brain haemorrhage. My fathers family has a history of this. My dad has lost a brother, a sister and his father to this. All happened so quickly, and when death strikes like that it's hard to resolve it. My Grandma on my mothers side died after a long battle with cancer. We all knew she was going to die and we all had our chance to say goodbye. We resolved it and feel better for it now. When death strikes quickly it takes its toll on us and makes us question everything. My friend feels responsible for what happened to her rabbit because she wasn't there to look after it when it died. She'll grieve for a long time. She's not a strong person emotionally so she'll have a lot of trouble coming to terms with it.
You sound like a person who's never had a strong connection with anything other than his own ego.Mega Flare":2yw3g0js said:
This.StrawberrySmiles":2yw3g0js said:
My bird is ingrained so much into my life now that living without it will be a tough thing for me to do.
you just have to celebrate the life you had together. you can't worry about the unknown potion, that anxiety will shave years off your life and make you feel awful. if you already have bad anxiety now, go see a doctor befire you hit your 20s and things become significantly worse.
also Mega Flare has a point. my dog was really sick I thought she might die. when I took her the the vet, they wanted to do all these cancer tests and blood tests that would amount to 1500$. I declined all of them, paid the check up bill, and hoped my dog would get better. she eventually did. I had to be practical and realize she is a pet no matter how much I love her.
also Mega Flare has a point. my dog was really sick I thought she might die. when I took her the the vet, they wanted to do all these cancer tests and blood tests that would amount to 1500$. I declined all of them, paid the check up bill, and hoped my dog would get better. she eventually did. I had to be practical and realize she is a pet no matter how much I love her.
StrawberrySmiles
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bacon":1mssk960 said:
Mega just sounded like he didn't know about the bonds between owners and pets. o.o
Buuuuttttt, if I had to chose between saving my pet and someone I cared about, I'd choose the latter. So I understand.
coyotecraft
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Night owl or procrastinator?
I'm noticing that when I give myself all day to work on something, it's a struggle to start as long as the sun is high. But once it starts setting, the flow kicks in. I don't think it has anything to do with what hours I keep or my energy levels because I can be dead tired and still never break focus at night.
But wide awake during the day, energetic and enthusiastic, I'll still delay and torture myself.
I think I've been conditioned to behave like this as a kid. You know, you want to play that game, watch a new episode, do something, but it had to wait until after school, after supper, after 7pm.
I see the same pattern in me as an adult, but it's unreasonable to delay and just leads to wasted opportunities.
Idk, just looking for explanations.
I'm noticing that when I give myself all day to work on something, it's a struggle to start as long as the sun is high. But once it starts setting, the flow kicks in. I don't think it has anything to do with what hours I keep or my energy levels because I can be dead tired and still never break focus at night.
But wide awake during the day, energetic and enthusiastic, I'll still delay and torture myself.
I think I've been conditioned to behave like this as a kid. You know, you want to play that game, watch a new episode, do something, but it had to wait until after school, after supper, after 7pm.
I see the same pattern in me as an adult, but it's unreasonable to delay and just leads to wasted opportunities.
Idk, just looking for explanations.
StrawberrySmiles
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Maybe it's both!