I've been here for two and a half years. Yet it feels like forever. Which is why I get scared and sad when we start reminiscing because I suddenly begin to feel out of place (same with my friends of skype.)
I've met some great people through here and IRC, and although I may be absent quite often, I don't think I'll leave fully.
In other news I'm thinking of becoming a teacher.
I'll go to college and do the adults teaching course and then see if I can either make it to uni and do computer science while tutoring on the side, or become a full time teacher. Honestly I've been fucking around with this apprenticeship. Working for the council isn't for me. It makes me feel like a cog in a poorly oiled machine, it's horrid and I get treated pretty damn poorly, and when I want to complain about it or make it better it's always my fault.
This summer will be great. I'll move in with my bro and things will slowly improve.
Venetia":1myjm0ep said:
HiPoyion":1myjm0ep said:
Long time no see Ven! Hows life?
s'good! how're you?
Good and bad. There was some time where things got real shitty.
The worst part about my life right now is the waiting. I've got to wait until my brother comes back from uni, then he goes and holiday so it's more waiting, then, when we finally move in, I've gotta wait until my contract finishes before I do what I want to do with my life. It has been good. There have been good times. But those times are mostly when I see my bro.
I've realized there's not many people in this town I like. And even the ones I like, I'm too anxious/lazy to go see them. People will make plans with me and then it'll come to the day and every fiber in my body rejects the thought of leaving the house to see them. The only time's I leave the house to go somewhere other than work/the store is when my bro is down and we go skating or something.
In school I used to be so apathetic to what people thought of me. I was so social and I would just hang with who I wanted to hang with... I'm honestly pathetic in comparison to how I used to be... Or maybe back then I was just faking it more... Who knows.
This suddenly became a strange off the rails rant and I really need to stop doing that. SORRY GUYS!