Last night I had one of the worst dreams of my life, I actually thought it was relay happening for a moment, I type this hands trembling holding back my inner emotion. MY thoughts still race as if the dream where some kind of sign warning me of future events. The dream took place in my home, but it didn’t feel like home, every one hated me and wanted me gone, they didn’t want me there. Near the end of the dream I was on the phone, with Angela, apparently she was in a hot tub, at first I thought nothing of it. in the dream. But soon after she started making strange comments that made me grow suspicious, something about not giving someone her warm wet pussy, and how she wanted to fuck....
My heart dropped...in my dream, I felt my heart plunge from my chest into my stomach, I felt tears forming in my eyes, I felt my world crash around me. I felt time stop and I felt the longest silence in my life. I herd her moan once....then twice....
Then after a third time I asked who was there. She said some friends...She, I use she because I don’t want to use the name of whom I was talking to because the thought of it brings my life to a cold stop. Then I asked, are girls in the hot tub.....yes......then are guys in the hot tub...........yes....
Then at last my world stopped, my heart feel, my agony renewed, somewhere deep inside of me, a emotion was waiting. Hiding, and then it emerged. I was in a state of rage, crying for help,, wishing to reach out but it was useless, I slammed the phone and tossed around the room throwing things punching through walls, i screamed, and I remember my words, FUCK YOU! I HATE YOU, WHY?!? I AM DONE WITH YOU!
A loud scream that came form inside my head, calling for something. Wanting to inflict pain upon everyone, the scream grew louder and then it was silenced....at 6:11 I awoke, in a cold sweat, blankets on the floor, the cool air around me, everything dark, alone....I lay there staring at the clock for what seemed like years, but in reality was only seconds, and now here I am...typing this...for what, to help me forget, or to help me remember, I don’t know.....I don’t know........I don’t know.....
The worst art about this dream is I remembered it all…every word, every breath, all of it….
My heart dropped...in my dream, I felt my heart plunge from my chest into my stomach, I felt tears forming in my eyes, I felt my world crash around me. I felt time stop and I felt the longest silence in my life. I herd her moan once....then twice....
Then after a third time I asked who was there. She said some friends...She, I use she because I don’t want to use the name of whom I was talking to because the thought of it brings my life to a cold stop. Then I asked, are girls in the hot tub.....yes......then are guys in the hot tub...........yes....
Then at last my world stopped, my heart feel, my agony renewed, somewhere deep inside of me, a emotion was waiting. Hiding, and then it emerged. I was in a state of rage, crying for help,, wishing to reach out but it was useless, I slammed the phone and tossed around the room throwing things punching through walls, i screamed, and I remember my words, FUCK YOU! I HATE YOU, WHY?!? I AM DONE WITH YOU!
A loud scream that came form inside my head, calling for something. Wanting to inflict pain upon everyone, the scream grew louder and then it was silenced....at 6:11 I awoke, in a cold sweat, blankets on the floor, the cool air around me, everything dark, alone....I lay there staring at the clock for what seemed like years, but in reality was only seconds, and now here I am...typing this...for what, to help me forget, or to help me remember, I don’t know.....I don’t know........I don’t know.....
The worst art about this dream is I remembered it all…every word, every breath, all of it….