Diegoale2000
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Allright, Im not very used to being confused about feelings, since these past years i've concentrated on having no-strings-attached-fun (when it comes to sexual relationships) but last night, the most incredible thing happened to me. this person sent me a message on Myspace...well..how's that incredible? you may ask...ok I'll explain everything:
It all began 2 years ago, when I was in 11th grade, I had just starting to become very popular in my school, and at the time, it was like the greatest thing, well, popularity lead to me discovering myself, I started dressing differently, exploiting my looks to their maximum potential.(don't get me wrong, im not saying Im the hot thing or anything) but anyways, I started dressing better, buying the "in" brands, etc..
well, anyways, during the year, i met this girl, who was pretty much the most popular girl in school (prom princess, and then prom queen later on) and at first, we started talking in class, and soon for some reason, we started making out and having relationships secretly in school, it was a secret, because she had a boyfriend, another very popular guy whom i'll just call "H"
Well, everything was going great! I was a fling, and that was really cool, plus the whole "getting caught doing it in school" thing was really, really exciting.
well, our biggest error was when we went in the auditorium once, there were some hispanic kids (don't worry, im not being racist, im hispanic myself) that none of us knew, however, they knew US...and the word was spread around the school...
that made us stop, because every day, we'd get a different (sometimes random) person ask me or her if we were really having a fling. plus I'd get in serious trouble with "H" and It was better to avoid that.
well, no one was suppossed to know about it, because we were doing it in the auditorium, so it seemed obvious that one of us had "spilled the beans"
well, that became pretty much the most controversial event in the school, and it took us apart. we no longer even spoke to each other.
well, the thing WAS the most controversial event, because it was not forgotten at all, it even lasted the following year, it was still one of the biggest rumors, and we had people asking me, not as much as in 11th grade, but still, a lot, so during 12th grade, we got a class together, and Im guessing that we must have spoken like 10 words to each other throughout the semester, until one day "H" confronts her about it with some very ACCURATE details of what we had done, and she went ballistic, and sent me a very VERY violent message through myspace, and we ended the year in REALLY BAD TERMS...
ANYWAYS... it's been almost 3 months since school ended, and we're all going our separate ways now, going to different colleges, etc...
so, last night, I get this message from her...and its her APOLOGIZING and asking me to call her, so we can talk about what had happened between us, and why people spoke so much about it. well, I tried calling ehr but she was at work, so I sent her a message with my Cell # , and at around 2 AM she calls me, and asks me if I can go out, I'm out of a car right now(Being fixed) so I tell her that I can, but she'd have to pick me up, so she comes, and we had planned to go to IHOP or some 24 hour restaurant around the area...well, she didn't go there...
she drove around, and we talked about what had happened, and we talked about how people had distorted the events so much ('Cuz the REALLY DID) and we were having a good time, as friends...until, she stopped at a parking lot which is kinda empty, and she said 'Kiss me" ...so I did...and as we started to "get busy" she told me "I REALLY, REALLY MISSED YOU" that SHOCKED ME...we had done it MANY MANY times before the rumors, but we had NEVER shown any emotions toward each other, and i can ASSURE that we NEVER EVER SHOWED A SINGLE BIT OF EMOTIONS toward each other...we never went out, we never spoke much, it was just sex, no relationship at all...but now, she was looking at me, talking to me in a totally different way, I had never had anyone look at me like that, act like that, she was caressing me, and She had never done that before..>I even felt like it was a totally new her...but now, that we'll probably be separated in a week, i don't know what that meant...does she have feelings for me?
it's killing me, because im too afraid to ask her that, because i remember how she used to be towards feelings, and i don't want to embarrase myself getting false hopes or anything like that.
well, i don't know what to think, and what to do...
(OK HERE"S SOME FUNNY STUFF SHOWING HOW PPL DISTORTED THE REAL EVENTS)
~I was asked if we had actually made a porno movie, the real event was that we acted in a movie for a class...that's it...>_< no porn
~She was asked if I had seriously raped her while she was asleep (we were both like WTF!?)
~Apparently people saw us doing it during prom !? (we were on bad terms during prom!)
~Apparently She had sex with me for money (uhh...I never paid her, nor she ever asked for money LOL)
wel, anyways, if anyone has any ideas...tell me i guess...cuz I don't know how to react to this stuff
It all began 2 years ago, when I was in 11th grade, I had just starting to become very popular in my school, and at the time, it was like the greatest thing, well, popularity lead to me discovering myself, I started dressing differently, exploiting my looks to their maximum potential.(don't get me wrong, im not saying Im the hot thing or anything) but anyways, I started dressing better, buying the "in" brands, etc..
well, anyways, during the year, i met this girl, who was pretty much the most popular girl in school (prom princess, and then prom queen later on) and at first, we started talking in class, and soon for some reason, we started making out and having relationships secretly in school, it was a secret, because she had a boyfriend, another very popular guy whom i'll just call "H"
Well, everything was going great! I was a fling, and that was really cool, plus the whole "getting caught doing it in school" thing was really, really exciting.
well, our biggest error was when we went in the auditorium once, there were some hispanic kids (don't worry, im not being racist, im hispanic myself) that none of us knew, however, they knew US...and the word was spread around the school...
that made us stop, because every day, we'd get a different (sometimes random) person ask me or her if we were really having a fling. plus I'd get in serious trouble with "H" and It was better to avoid that.
well, no one was suppossed to know about it, because we were doing it in the auditorium, so it seemed obvious that one of us had "spilled the beans"
well, that became pretty much the most controversial event in the school, and it took us apart. we no longer even spoke to each other.
well, the thing WAS the most controversial event, because it was not forgotten at all, it even lasted the following year, it was still one of the biggest rumors, and we had people asking me, not as much as in 11th grade, but still, a lot, so during 12th grade, we got a class together, and Im guessing that we must have spoken like 10 words to each other throughout the semester, until one day "H" confronts her about it with some very ACCURATE details of what we had done, and she went ballistic, and sent me a very VERY violent message through myspace, and we ended the year in REALLY BAD TERMS...
ANYWAYS... it's been almost 3 months since school ended, and we're all going our separate ways now, going to different colleges, etc...
so, last night, I get this message from her...and its her APOLOGIZING and asking me to call her, so we can talk about what had happened between us, and why people spoke so much about it. well, I tried calling ehr but she was at work, so I sent her a message with my Cell # , and at around 2 AM she calls me, and asks me if I can go out, I'm out of a car right now(Being fixed) so I tell her that I can, but she'd have to pick me up, so she comes, and we had planned to go to IHOP or some 24 hour restaurant around the area...well, she didn't go there...
she drove around, and we talked about what had happened, and we talked about how people had distorted the events so much ('Cuz the REALLY DID) and we were having a good time, as friends...until, she stopped at a parking lot which is kinda empty, and she said 'Kiss me" ...so I did...and as we started to "get busy" she told me "I REALLY, REALLY MISSED YOU" that SHOCKED ME...we had done it MANY MANY times before the rumors, but we had NEVER shown any emotions toward each other, and i can ASSURE that we NEVER EVER SHOWED A SINGLE BIT OF EMOTIONS toward each other...we never went out, we never spoke much, it was just sex, no relationship at all...but now, she was looking at me, talking to me in a totally different way, I had never had anyone look at me like that, act like that, she was caressing me, and She had never done that before..>I even felt like it was a totally new her...but now, that we'll probably be separated in a week, i don't know what that meant...does she have feelings for me?
it's killing me, because im too afraid to ask her that, because i remember how she used to be towards feelings, and i don't want to embarrase myself getting false hopes or anything like that.
well, i don't know what to think, and what to do...
(OK HERE"S SOME FUNNY STUFF SHOWING HOW PPL DISTORTED THE REAL EVENTS)
~I was asked if we had actually made a porno movie, the real event was that we acted in a movie for a class...that's it...>_< no porn
~She was asked if I had seriously raped her while she was asleep (we were both like WTF!?)
~Apparently people saw us doing it during prom !? (we were on bad terms during prom!)
~Apparently She had sex with me for money (uhh...I never paid her, nor she ever asked for money LOL)
wel, anyways, if anyone has any ideas...tell me i guess...cuz I don't know how to react to this stuff
