This is a song I wrote about my dad's childhood, growing up as a poor boy who's dad left the family when he was only nine, being the crazy drunk he was.
Enjoy.
Enjoy.
The lights go down, as it starts to fade
The preacher speaks, and your song plays
I wanted to think about all of your love
But as I went back to all those days
Spent in the bend where you were phased
I'd never spent a real moment with you
I gave my best and tried to cry
I felt like a mess when they said you'd died
All I could think about was all those broken nights
But I can't remember you
No matter how hard my heart tries
All the memories escaped my mind
Except for when you left us behind
Remember all those nights
When I was left awake to wonder
Why didn't you ever love her?
And were you going to be home soon?
But I can't remember you...
I was nine, could barely read
When you walked out on me, I couldn't think
I was lost in a world where I was all alone
I wished to love a dad, who loved his kids
But that fantasy was too good for him
I thought about why you never could hug me?
Poor at home and near the end
We didn't know if we would eat again
You were gone, and we couldn't carry on
But I can't remember you
No matter how hard my heart tries
All the memories escaped my mind
Except for when you left us behind
Remember all those nights
When I was left awake to wonder
Why didn't you ever love her?
And were you going to be home soon?
But I can't remember you...
Jesus was there to keep me strong
He gave me new strength, and saved our mom
God gave us hope, and kept us all
Under his arm, and fed our souls
Though I didn't have a father
I knew my God could take me farther
Than my heart could ever wonder, for you
The preacher speaks, and your song plays
I wanted to think about all of your love
But as I went back to all those days
Spent in the bend where you were phased
I'd never spent a real moment with you
I gave my best and tried to cry
I felt like a mess when they said you'd died
All I could think about was all those broken nights
But I can't remember you
No matter how hard my heart tries
All the memories escaped my mind
Except for when you left us behind
Remember all those nights
When I was left awake to wonder
Why didn't you ever love her?
And were you going to be home soon?
But I can't remember you...
I was nine, could barely read
When you walked out on me, I couldn't think
I was lost in a world where I was all alone
I wished to love a dad, who loved his kids
But that fantasy was too good for him
I thought about why you never could hug me?
Poor at home and near the end
We didn't know if we would eat again
You were gone, and we couldn't carry on
But I can't remember you
No matter how hard my heart tries
All the memories escaped my mind
Except for when you left us behind
Remember all those nights
When I was left awake to wonder
Why didn't you ever love her?
And were you going to be home soon?
But I can't remember you...
Jesus was there to keep me strong
He gave me new strength, and saved our mom
God gave us hope, and kept us all
Under his arm, and fed our souls
Though I didn't have a father
I knew my God could take me farther
Than my heart could ever wonder, for you