The Believer
By: Casey P. Ford
I fell asleep one night and found myself walking with My Savior, Jesus Christ. As we walked along the beach, I noticed that he was rather close to me, but thought nothing of it. My life experiences played in front of me and I watched contently. I did not say a word for I wasn't sure what to make of the display. I watched closely and noticed a figure in all of my doings who stood right next to me, exactly where Jesus was standing right now as we walked. I looked closer at the person next to me in the pictures of life and was overjoyed to realize that it was Jesus standing there, holding my hand through every stage and moment of my life. I could not express my joy at the moment of realization that Jesus was with me, but my happiness soon changed to despair and confusion as I looked behind me at the footprints in he sand behind us. At my most trying times in my life, there were only one set of footprints, where all other times had two. I looked at my feet and tried to make sense of the confusion. Jesus looked at me and his face reflected my pain.
"What is wrong, My Son." He asked kindly. I answered as kindly he had to me.
"I know I'm not to question you, but as I look back at the footprints I noticed that on my most trying times there is only one set of footprints. This upsets me greatly. Why did you leave me when I needed you the most?" Jesus smiled at me.
"My Son, look at the footprints of your most trying time." I did as I was told and found they weren't my footprints. I looked at Jesus and he continued to smile, "The times that were your most trying and hard were the times that I carried you." I smiled at him and he reflected the smile back. I felt such incredible love from him that I didn't want to wake up the next morning.
The Non-Believer
I remember falling asleep just as I got home from my job and having the strangest dream that I will ever have. I was on a dark and dreary beach, alone. I looked around and couldn't see anything, I was blinded by the darkness. I started to grow scared of the place and it grew cold. I wondered what I had done to deserve to be placed in such a place. As I pondered the question a light formed next to me and I watched as it shaped itself into a man. The light grew solid and I noticed that the man that emerged from it was in fact the Son of God Himself. Though I never believed in Him (I thought he was just a man that lived a long time ago.). I know now that I was wrong, but I still held my disbelief, for I knew this could only be a dream and my mind was playing with me.
I looked closely at the Son of God and noticed that He looked like he was just put through an intense battle. He had scratches across his face and he was bleeding immensely from his back. I thought of caring for him, but decided against it for I knew nothing of how to help him. He straightened and looked at me with a face that screamed in pain for him. It shot through my heart immediately. It hurt me to look at him.
"Jesus, who did this to you?" I asked not moving from my spot.
"You did, My Son. You did." He answered me. I took a step back, horror-struck. I don't remember ever physically beating on someone. I've made fun of people, but never actually hit someone. No, I couldn't be the one that did this to him. It had to be someone else. But still somewhere, somewhere deep in my heart and soul I knew he was right. No matter hard I tried to suppress it. It was a small feeling but strong enough to be felt.
"Will you follow me?" I wasn't sure if I should, but I nodded either way and slowly followed behind him. I was taking longer steps then He was and I was soon walking in front him. When I realized that I was ahead of Him I stopped and waited for Him to be even with me, but I never went to meet Him, and he never stood right next to me, he was always at least five feet away.
As we walked I looked at the sky and noticed that my life was playing before me. I watched with very little interest, for why should you watch something you've already seen. I watched only the parts that I wanted to see again, the parts that I've almost forgotten. I laughed and cried and grew angry and confused, all corresponding with the memories of the moment in front of me. Jesus continued to walk, he never faltered.
"Stop!" Jesus yelled and I stopped dead in my tracks. Jesus looked at me with eyes that spoke of confusion.
"I do not show you your life so you can ignore it. I show you to show how you did this to me." I took another step away from him. He reached His hand out to try and grab me as though I was falling into a great abyss, A tear slowly formed in his eye. I looked at him in confusion, wondering why he had tried to grab me like that. I held my ground and after awhile he lowered his hand and head in defeat.
"Look at your footprints in the sand, My Son." He said softly, almost under his breath. I was looked behind me and found that my most trying times were when only one set of footprints were found. I grew rather angry.
"Why did you leave me when I needed you the most? You were with me all the other times, why were my hard and trying times any different? I needed you and you left me. Your no Savior, your a nobody. That's why I never believed in you, because you never helped me when I needed you." Jesus shrank slightly. I never faltered. I stared him down. As I watched he react with pain, like someone whipped him in the back. I watched him drop to one knee, but I did not move.
I just stared at him, thinking he deserved it for abandoning me when I needed him most. Blood streaks across his back slowly flooded again as a new slash formed. I wasn't sure, but it looked like he had forty slashes across his back, including the new one that just formed. He had rather large tears trailing down his face, the look of pain across his face was almost to much even for my anger.
"Look at your life and tell me what you see." He slowly recovered from the invisible onslaught. I admit it right now I had no idea what I was supposed to look for, but I looked none-the-less. I saw nothing of importance, nothing at all.
"I see nothing but my life." I said honestly.
"That is because you have your eyes closed. Open your eyes then look at your life and tell me what you see." I was shaken by what he said. I had no idea what he meant when he said that I had my eyes closed. They were open, how else could I be seeing all that I was? I slowly moved my fingers up to my eyes and tried to feel my eyes. I was shocked as I found that my fingers felt skin, my eyelids were closed. But I saw my fingers touching my eyes as if they were touching my eyeballs. I tried to open my eyes, but it was so hard to do that I forced them open. I watched my life fly by 'with my eyes open' and I saw what Jesus wanted me to see, a figure that followed behind me throughout my life. Every time the figure would get close to me and start to walk next to me through my life I started to walk faster and push it away. I pushed the figure away many times, but it never got discouraged and it continued to try to walk with me.
The figure was Jesus.
I was awe struck at the persistence he had, and horrorified by the way I continually pushed him away. I was so enthrothed by the sight that I let go of my eyelids and I was blinded again. I looked at Jesus, who standing fully erect now. He seemed to read my mind, "Those times where you see only one set of footprints are the times when I carried you. The scratches you see across my face are from you trying to get out of my grasp."
"I know you needed help and when I tried to help you fought me. That is why your trying times were always more trying then anyone else's."
"You may have thought that you did on your own, but the truth of the matter is that you needed help and I was there to help you, whether you wanted it or not. Sometimes the person who needs the most help is the one that never asks for it. Even the tallest person has to stand on someones shoulders, sometimes. Your not alone, My Son, but the more you believe you are, the harder it is for me to help you."
"I am the Father that when his son is in trouble is the first one there to help and the last one to leave. I will never leave you and forsake you for any reason. I am the doctor that fights to heal a fatally ill patient and cries when he loses him."
"I fight to the death so that ONE person's soul may live, every time." I stared at Him and was stricken with a sudden realization that this wasn't a dream. My mind wasn't playing tricks on me and all my doubts disappeared. This realization opened my eyes permanently. I saw Jesus in a new light. Jesus's cuts and slashes were gone and I noticed that he glowed. I dropped to my knee's and cupped my hands together.
"Forgive me, Lord. I was lost, but now I'm found. Please, forgive me." I whispered.
Jesus looked down on me and said, "Likewise, I say unto you, there is joy in the presence of angels of God over one sinner that repenteth. You are forgiven, My Son. Welcome home." I stood up, gave him a hug, crying and noticed that there was singing around us. I looked around and saw angels rejoicing.
The verse: St. Luke 15:10, from the Catholic Bible and the First part of the story was an adaptation of the "Footprints" poem Author Unknown; Everything else came from my head.